Given the fact that he is one of those people who pays too much attention and value to beauty , I am surprised at how he got married to an ugly girl..
Tags:mr.green
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Music legends died this month, this year
MUSIC LEGENDS, jazz pianist DAVID BRUBECK and sitar player PANDIT
RAVISHANKER both died this month ..Both of them were in their
nineties..
Tags:music,music_legends,2012_december,deaths,david_brubeck,ravi_shankar
RAVISHANKER both died this month ..Both of them were in their
nineties..
Tags:music,music_legends,2012_december,deaths,david_brubeck,ravi_shankar
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Hyper
This french guy on this travel show is slightly hyper..and suddenly It
occured to me, " I can by pretty hyper myself sometimes"
tags:hyper
occured to me, " I can by pretty hyper myself sometimes"
tags:hyper
The INSANITY of violence
Any SANE person with a thinking WELL BALACED head on their shoulders
WILL NOT RESORT TO PHYSICAL VIOLENCE ever
Tags:violence,insanity,mental_issues
WILL NOT RESORT TO PHYSICAL VIOLENCE ever
Tags:violence,insanity,mental_issues
The purposelessness of a very short skirt!
A short skirt serves no purpose except probably like saying"hey I am
wearing a skirt" .It is too short to protect the skin of your legs,It
is too short to protect you from the cold, being short the hem is
exactly at the place where you sit on and causes hip problems and
being too short it constantly exposes your perineal area...So,, I
mean..why NOT DIPOSE of it ALTOGETHER and just walk around in your
underwear ?
Tags:purposeless,show,clothing,short_skirt
wearing a skirt" .It is too short to protect the skin of your legs,It
is too short to protect you from the cold, being short the hem is
exactly at the place where you sit on and causes hip problems and
being too short it constantly exposes your perineal area...So,, I
mean..why NOT DIPOSE of it ALTOGETHER and just walk around in your
underwear ?
Tags:purposeless,show,clothing,short_skirt
RIGHTFUL BEGGAR?
Women in so many cultures are taught to RIGHTFULLY beg their husbands
or boyfriends for gifts or spending money..Culturally teaching them
that an adult asking another adult for spending money is OKAY! (which
it is not).Children asking parents is okay..but expecting money in
exchange for companionship or sex is like BEING A GLORIFIED PET
TAGS:sociology,women,beggar,financial_independance,self_respect
or boyfriends for gifts or spending money..Culturally teaching them
that an adult asking another adult for spending money is OKAY! (which
it is not).Children asking parents is okay..but expecting money in
exchange for companionship or sex is like BEING A GLORIFIED PET
TAGS:sociology,women,beggar,financial_independance,self_respect
FAKE family pics and videos
I see the family videos and family pictures of this doctor lady -all
happy and whatever...and I FAIL TO BELIEVE the authenticity of the
"happy" family factor.I think she and her husband have a dysfunctional
love relationship.It is just a relationship of familiarity and about
having gotten used to living together for long now.Much like WHY BREAK
A CONVENIENT HABIT .
TAGS:fake,family_pics,family_videos,dysfunctional_relationships
happy and whatever...and I FAIL TO BELIEVE the authenticity of the
"happy" family factor.I think she and her husband have a dysfunctional
love relationship.It is just a relationship of familiarity and about
having gotten used to living together for long now.Much like WHY BREAK
A CONVENIENT HABIT .
TAGS:fake,family_pics,family_videos,dysfunctional_relationships
Looking at others' kids pics
Just as I look at pic after pic of other doctor couples kids,while
taking a bath,while eating,family thanksgiving dinners and holiday
pictures, I SUDDENLY realize that bringing up kids is TOO MUCH OF WORK
Tags:kids,work,other_couples,parenting
taking a bath,while eating,family thanksgiving dinners and holiday
pictures, I SUDDENLY realize that bringing up kids is TOO MUCH OF WORK
Tags:kids,work,other_couples,parenting
Friday, December 7, 2012
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
The right way to research
Monday, December 3, 2012
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Friday, November 30, 2012
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Intensity of damage
I think that Monsters are REALLY UNAWARE OF THE INTENSITY OF DAMAGE
they incur on other people by their selfish,petty actions.
I think that they are just so caught up in their own needs,their petty selfish needs driven
by greed and a warped up state of mind that they FAIL TO IDENTIFY THE
DAMAGE they are inflicting on their victim ..
Oftentimes, Abusers view their abusive behavior to their victims in a ROSY VIEW.,They romanticize it, look at it as something clearly the victim is liking and wanting more..Truly, A warped up state of mind.
I am sure that if a person GETS TRULY AWARE OF HOW ABUSIVE AND HARRASING their behavior is, they will hate themselves enough to stop repeating that behavior.
they incur on other people by their selfish,petty actions.
I think that they are just so caught up in their own needs,their petty selfish needs driven
by greed and a warped up state of mind that they FAIL TO IDENTIFY THE
DAMAGE they are inflicting on their victim ..
Oftentimes, Abusers view their abusive behavior to their victims in a ROSY VIEW.,They romanticize it, look at it as something clearly the victim is liking and wanting more..Truly, A warped up state of mind.
I am sure that if a person GETS TRULY AWARE OF HOW ABUSIVE AND HARRASING their behavior is, they will hate themselves enough to stop repeating that behavior.
Quoting Chris . Moment to bridge
This is yet another sentence I Quote from a blogger chris who says
QUOTE
"The gap between acting and doing takes but a moment to bridge."
UNQUOTE
VERY TRUE AND WELL SAID
QUOTE
"The gap between acting and doing takes but a moment to bridge."
UNQUOTE
VERY TRUE AND WELL SAID
Quoting Chris. Good problems?
I am quoting yet again what this blogger chris wrote in one of his blog entries
Quote
"But that's what hard work will get you...good problems". :)
Unquote
Well said.
Quote
"But that's what hard work will get you...good problems". :)
Unquote
Well said.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Friday, November 16, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
jazz, blues
My voice capacities and improvization will possibly suit a jazz or
blues style of singing...Singing jazz or blues is when I am a the
happiest..One more thing common bn Mr.U and me...:))
blues style of singing...Singing jazz or blues is when I am a the
happiest..One more thing common bn Mr.U and me...:))
cocoon
I think I need to go back into the cocoon now....Maybe, soon, be a
butterfly that flies off to the gardens?
butterfly that flies off to the gardens?
Crying far too much
Thanks to crying each time I recall all the nastiness of Mr.green and
also crying too much after watching each episode of oshin...TOO MUCH
CRYING...I can't do this, Tears are immunoglobulins and loss of tears
means less immunity and given that I already have certain health
issues, low immunity is NOT a good thing AT ALL...
Was reminded of jan 2011, when My mom underwent NEUROSURGERY...I was
crying before and during and after the surgery...I needed so much
emotional support that I actually tried talking to mr.green ...after
swearing that it is only appropriate that I LOSE ALL CONTACT WITH
HIM...Funnily, when I shared the information of my mom's surgery with
him..THE TWISTED IDIOT...slowly opened his shitty mouth and said
something akin to (here I am paraphrasing from memory) " I am not sure
you are telling the truth...Maybe you are making it all up"
hmmmm..sigh....What a weathered jaded twisted mind would surmise that
someone would make up stories about their mother undergoing
NEUROSURGERY...seriously...WTF....
WHEN I SAY I FELT EMOTIONALLY ABUSED BY HIM THE WHOLE TIME THAT I
INTERACTED WITH HIM, this is what I am talking about
also crying too much after watching each episode of oshin...TOO MUCH
CRYING...I can't do this, Tears are immunoglobulins and loss of tears
means less immunity and given that I already have certain health
issues, low immunity is NOT a good thing AT ALL...
Was reminded of jan 2011, when My mom underwent NEUROSURGERY...I was
crying before and during and after the surgery...I needed so much
emotional support that I actually tried talking to mr.green ...after
swearing that it is only appropriate that I LOSE ALL CONTACT WITH
HIM...Funnily, when I shared the information of my mom's surgery with
him..THE TWISTED IDIOT...slowly opened his shitty mouth and said
something akin to (here I am paraphrasing from memory) " I am not sure
you are telling the truth...Maybe you are making it all up"
hmmmm..sigh....What a weathered jaded twisted mind would surmise that
someone would make up stories about their mother undergoing
NEUROSURGERY...seriously...WTF....
WHEN I SAY I FELT EMOTIONALLY ABUSED BY HIM THE WHOLE TIME THAT I
INTERACTED WITH HIM, this is what I am talking about
Knocked myself out
Knocked myself out with dropping some serious dough on books..I used
to spend so much money on books -both college books and non-college
books while in medschool....STopped at some point when I started using
blogs as my reading material..
ON a whim today..took a DAY LONG SHOPPING TRIP..spent a couple of
hours at the book store..bought MANY books..some gifts for parents and
then sat at the cafe and drank a strawberry crush which btw was no
good(what can an accomplished chef do but like only their finicky
concoctions, :))
Yeah....Spent so much of the money I took along on the books that I
was left with not that much money for the groceries that I intended
to buy...So, all the things I picked up at the grocery store, I left
behind at the counter and went back home to get more money..I come
back and the shop assistants had already eyed my meticulous choices
and flicked some products... LOL..so yeah
to spend so much money on books -both college books and non-college
books while in medschool....STopped at some point when I started using
blogs as my reading material..
ON a whim today..took a DAY LONG SHOPPING TRIP..spent a couple of
hours at the book store..bought MANY books..some gifts for parents and
then sat at the cafe and drank a strawberry crush which btw was no
good(what can an accomplished chef do but like only their finicky
concoctions, :))
Yeah....Spent so much of the money I took along on the books that I
was left with not that much money for the groceries that I intended
to buy...So, all the things I picked up at the grocery store, I left
behind at the counter and went back home to get more money..I come
back and the shop assistants had already eyed my meticulous choices
and flicked some products... LOL..so yeah
Daughter and mother in law
The in-law relationships are very CONFLICTED in any society where
women are FORCED to not have a job outside of the home and so they end
up being so financially dependant on the men of the family , that they
end up personalities that have inculcated habits of emotional
manipulation of the male members of the family and oftentimes
instigating the male members against other female members of the
family who interfere with their self-interest..
Solution to this?
EDUCATE FEMALE CHILDREN, ALLOW THEM TO EARN THEIR OWN LIVING OUTSIDE
OF THEIR HOME..That way, they don't end up as MANIPULATIVE BEGGAR
HOUSEWIVES of the family.
women are FORCED to not have a job outside of the home and so they end
up being so financially dependant on the men of the family , that they
end up personalities that have inculcated habits of emotional
manipulation of the male members of the family and oftentimes
instigating the male members against other female members of the
family who interfere with their self-interest..
Solution to this?
EDUCATE FEMALE CHILDREN, ALLOW THEM TO EARN THEIR OWN LIVING OUTSIDE
OF THEIR HOME..That way, they don't end up as MANIPULATIVE BEGGAR
HOUSEWIVES of the family.
Ridiculously
The first episode of OSHIN starts of with the male slapping the
female..A true representation of how subjugated women are in that
society..where the fuck are the EQUAL RIGHTS?
female..A true representation of how subjugated women are in that
society..where the fuck are the EQUAL RIGHTS?
oshin
The comments on the oshin videos on Youtube made me realize that the
TV series impacted NOT just me, but so many other children of the same
age group all over the world in the same deep manner...I cried just
reading the comments there
I am so so happy that My looooooongest desire to re-watch oshin is
being fulfiled now....Now that I see it as an adult, I seem to notice
so many things that I never bothered to pay attention as a child
Japan for sure is picturesque
Anyways, By the time I ended up watching seven episodes, I had already
cried atleast 11 times..I cried so much and so loudly at the scene
where oshin's father runs on the river bank as she leaves for her
babysitting job.
I also cried each time the granny cried ..reminded me of my granny
Looks like I am missing my family.....tears flowing just as I type this
TV series impacted NOT just me, but so many other children of the same
age group all over the world in the same deep manner...I cried just
reading the comments there
I am so so happy that My looooooongest desire to re-watch oshin is
being fulfiled now....Now that I see it as an adult, I seem to notice
so many things that I never bothered to pay attention as a child
Japan for sure is picturesque
Anyways, By the time I ended up watching seven episodes, I had already
cried atleast 11 times..I cried so much and so loudly at the scene
where oshin's father runs on the river bank as she leaves for her
babysitting job.
I also cried each time the granny cried ..reminded me of my granny
Looks like I am missing my family.....tears flowing just as I type this
oshin more details
All I could remember of watching the TV SERIES "oshin" from my childhood were
a/radish rice
b/wooden slippers
c/nappy washing in the river
d/kayo and a scene where an adolescent oshin serves her some brownish
black (alien looking) dessert to kayo
e/some old lady using this wooden abacus
f/paper doors being slided often
Now, 20 years later when I am rewatching it,
First off I realize that I am 33....whoa....not bad..
still feel like a kid, but so many things have happened to me
since when I first watched oshin at the age of 11 or 10
When I first watched it, I now recall that i watched the US ENGLISH
DUBBED VERSION OF IT.. Now I am watching the japanese version with english subtitles.
A totally different experience...both in terms of language but also
perception because I am noticing so many more things that a child
normally may not perceive or understand or notice...Me as an adult,
watching it again, I am noticing a lot.
I am blogging along as I am watching the series, coz each succeeding episode
stands the danger of erasing the previous episode details
THINGS I NOTICED WHEN I WATCHED OSHIN THIS TIME AROUND ARE
a/The mother of oshin actually went and sat in the snowy river , in an
attempt to ABORT her child (much like American women trying to hurl
themselves off the stairs to abort a pregnancy that was FORCED upon
them pre EQUAL RIGHTS era -which btw stands the danger of getting
erased if American women don't continuously fight for equal rights)
b/The grandma keeps constantly saying that she can't eat coz she is
old and useless ( If you watch japanese movies that are set in an
ancient time period, there are dialogues where one member of the
family is asking other members to eat them up coz there is such
scarcity of food-geezus -cannibalism in the time of famine?)
c/I also notice ,
Radish rice,
snow,
the picturesque beauty of japan,
an era before plastic coated nappies,
and suddenly
My thoughts go to "what does japan do for garbage disposal ?" given
that the current day population continue to breed like rabbits,
use a lot of plastic containers that are SINGLE USE and
there is such electronic waste too and
their tiny islands have so much of POPULATION PRESSURE ,
IT BOGGLES MY MIND... Surely they are dumping in the sea and surely it will all float and reach the US WEST COAST , much like how all the fukushima nuclear disaster waste has reached US westcoast after a year
d/Gender discrimination has been a big part of the history of japan
and it still continues to this day, more so in the form of women
speaking and giggling like children instead of confidentaly talking in
adult voices, manga porn and japanese school girl porn and short
skirted jap women being groped in subways and so on and so forth
e/child labor was rampant as recent as 1907 ? really?Hmmmm
f/The ceramics and darkwood tables and cabinets, the paper doors, the
beautiful gardens all are to die for
g/In the first episode of this series, they show scenes from 1983 and
there is this scene where this women first pours out tea from a
THERMOS FLASK into a ceramic tea pot and then proceeds to immediately
pour it into drinking teacups..I am like, " she could have directly
poured it from the thermos to the cups and saved up on washing more
dishes...LOL"
p.s:As I watched further episodes I realize that they use thermosflask to have HOT WATER ready and on hand and then they have leaves in the ceramic pot and then merely pour the hotwater from flask into ceramic pot and thus ensuring FRESHNESS in the brew...mmm...good idea that!
a/radish rice
b/wooden slippers
c/nappy washing in the river
d/kayo and a scene where an adolescent oshin serves her some brownish
black (alien looking) dessert to kayo
e/some old lady using this wooden abacus
f/paper doors being slided often
Now, 20 years later when I am rewatching it,
First off I realize that I am 33....whoa....not bad..
still feel like a kid, but so many things have happened to me
since when I first watched oshin at the age of 11 or 10
When I first watched it, I now recall that i watched the US ENGLISH
DUBBED VERSION OF IT.. Now I am watching the japanese version with english subtitles.
A totally different experience...both in terms of language but also
perception because I am noticing so many more things that a child
normally may not perceive or understand or notice...Me as an adult,
watching it again, I am noticing a lot.
I am blogging along as I am watching the series, coz each succeeding episode
stands the danger of erasing the previous episode details
THINGS I NOTICED WHEN I WATCHED OSHIN THIS TIME AROUND ARE
a/The mother of oshin actually went and sat in the snowy river , in an
attempt to ABORT her child (much like American women trying to hurl
themselves off the stairs to abort a pregnancy that was FORCED upon
them pre EQUAL RIGHTS era -which btw stands the danger of getting
erased if American women don't continuously fight for equal rights)
b/The grandma keeps constantly saying that she can't eat coz she is
old and useless ( If you watch japanese movies that are set in an
ancient time period, there are dialogues where one member of the
family is asking other members to eat them up coz there is such
scarcity of food-geezus -cannibalism in the time of famine?)
c/I also notice ,
Radish rice,
snow,
the picturesque beauty of japan,
an era before plastic coated nappies,
and suddenly
My thoughts go to "what does japan do for garbage disposal ?" given
that the current day population continue to breed like rabbits,
use a lot of plastic containers that are SINGLE USE and
there is such electronic waste too and
their tiny islands have so much of POPULATION PRESSURE ,
IT BOGGLES MY MIND... Surely they are dumping in the sea and surely it will all float and reach the US WEST COAST , much like how all the fukushima nuclear disaster waste has reached US westcoast after a year
d/Gender discrimination has been a big part of the history of japan
and it still continues to this day, more so in the form of women
speaking and giggling like children instead of confidentaly talking in
adult voices, manga porn and japanese school girl porn and short
skirted jap women being groped in subways and so on and so forth
e/child labor was rampant as recent as 1907 ? really?Hmmmm
f/The ceramics and darkwood tables and cabinets, the paper doors, the
beautiful gardens all are to die for
g/In the first episode of this series, they show scenes from 1983 and
there is this scene where this women first pours out tea from a
THERMOS FLASK into a ceramic tea pot and then proceeds to immediately
pour it into drinking teacups..I am like, " she could have directly
poured it from the thermos to the cups and saved up on washing more
dishes...LOL"
p.s:As I watched further episodes I realize that they use thermosflask to have HOT WATER ready and on hand and then they have leaves in the ceramic pot and then merely pour the hotwater from flask into ceramic pot and thus ensuring FRESHNESS in the brew...mmm...good idea that!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Fuck up everything he touches
Mr.Green once said to me, "I fuck up everything I touch." and he was true.
Tags:Damage,violation,sadness
Tags:Damage,violation,sadness
Damage
Mr.Green to my life and Damaged me on some level.Yet again,yet another
clueless damaged person whom I let into my life and they ransacked my
peace for as long as I talked to them.
Tags:Mr.Green,damage,violation
clueless damaged person whom I let into my life and they ransacked my
peace for as long as I talked to them.
Tags:Mr.Green,damage,violation
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Lana Del Ray's voice and style
I am starting to wonder if her singing voice is the same as her
speaking voice.Her voice is too too deep to be a normal speaking
voice. No?
Interesting bunch of songs I see of her's these days on TV.
Too young (from what I gather from wikipedia,her age!) to write such
deep songs..:)) Good job nevertheless
Tags:music,Music_reviews,lana_del_ray,songs,Falsetto,Singing_voice_versus_speaking_voice,girls
speaking voice.Her voice is too too deep to be a normal speaking
voice. No?
Interesting bunch of songs I see of her's these days on TV.
Too young (from what I gather from wikipedia,her age!) to write such
deep songs..:)) Good job nevertheless
Tags:music,Music_reviews,lana_del_ray,songs,Falsetto,Singing_voice_versus_speaking_voice,girls
The constantly lying friend?
Friday, November 9, 2012
obama reelected
Was slightly queasy on Nov 6th...Was relieved when I heard the projected results.
2012 -obama re elected.
2012 -obama re elected.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
Friday, October 26, 2012
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Because,understanding death helps suicide prevention,Please read my article and share with readers.
http://an-antidote-to-anger.blogspot.com/2009/06/secret-of-lifedeath-dna-and-instinct-to.html
Tags:death,Life,basic_instinct,DNA,genetics,Protein_coding_in_genetics,Biochemistry,evolution_of_life,Will_to_live,life,Suicide_prevention,Life_is_precious
Tags:death,Life,basic_instinct,DNA,genetics,Protein_coding_in_genetics,Biochemistry,evolution_of_life,Will_to_live,life,Suicide_prevention,Life_is_precious
The song " #MADNESS " by #MUSE=slow,soothing,special. Thumbsup to it!
Tags:slow_songs,special_songs,sex_songs,Songs_that_turn_me_on,Songs_that_get_me_in_the_mood
I hereby declare the song #Locked_out_of_heaven ABSOLUTELY DANCE-WORTHY!
Tags:dance,Dance_uninhibited,Dance_songs,Locked_out_of_heaven
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
@BRUNOMARS I Can't help but get up and DANCE each time your song #LockedOutOfHeavenVideo comes on TV.Good Job!
The video( air jumping, headbanging in the video) of the latest Bruno
Mars song "LOCKED OUT OF HEAVEN" totally matches the dynamic tune and
music arrangement of the actual song.Good job.
Tags:dance,music_video_reviews,Great_song_video_combination,Bruno_mars,Locked_out_of_heaven
Mars song "LOCKED OUT OF HEAVEN" totally matches the dynamic tune and
music arrangement of the actual song.Good job.
Tags:dance,music_video_reviews,Great_song_video_combination,Bruno_mars,Locked_out_of_heaven
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Monday, October 22, 2012
Compensating for his mom's shitty marriage
Just because his mom had a dysfuntional relationship with his dad and
the whole marriage needed to end as a divorce but continued on and on
far too long into his adulthood, Mr.U IS NOW compensating for that
fact by constantly choosing to date the so called "victim-divorcee"
women..He wants to be the savior of divorcee olivias of the world.Get
over it already!
Tags:Mr.U,divorce,dysfuntional_marriages,blame_game_in_a_divorce,savior_of_divorcee_women,
the whole marriage needed to end as a divorce but continued on and on
far too long into his adulthood, Mr.U IS NOW compensating for that
fact by constantly choosing to date the so called "victim-divorcee"
women..He wants to be the savior of divorcee olivias of the world.Get
over it already!
Tags:Mr.U,divorce,dysfuntional_marriages,blame_game_in_a_divorce,savior_of_divorcee_women,
Debating competition?
The presidential election is not a DEBATING COMPETITION..It is about
having the intellectual devices to accurately identify the country's
problems and then setting them right with smart policies.
having the intellectual devices to accurately identify the country's
problems and then setting them right with smart policies.
Happily Married?
Didn't realize that your definition of being "happily married"
involved constantly fantasizing about another woman
Tags:meaningless_relationships,fraud,pointless_marriages
involved constantly fantasizing about another woman
Tags:meaningless_relationships,fraud,pointless_marriages
The defintion of a stalker !
When you call a person a "stalker" and then ironically, you are the
one that is constantly visiting their blog and keeping tabs on them,
That by DEFINTION, makes YOU the stalker, not them !
Tags:sneaky,keeping_tabs,stalker,finger_pointing,blame_game,throwing_someone_under_the_bus
one that is constantly visiting their blog and keeping tabs on them,
That by DEFINTION, makes YOU the stalker, not them !
Tags:sneaky,keeping_tabs,stalker,finger_pointing,blame_game,throwing_someone_under_the_bus
Sunday, October 21, 2012
CLUELESS MS.O
A person who doesn't fully TEST the compatibility of the relationship
before JUMPING into a marriage hurriedly and then gets a divorce
claiming "INCOMPATIBILITY" is truly CLUELESS
Tags:Ms.O,clueless,marriage,divorce,Mr.U
before JUMPING into a marriage hurriedly and then gets a divorce
claiming "INCOMPATIBILITY" is truly CLUELESS
Tags:Ms.O,clueless,marriage,divorce,Mr.U
A kiss on the lips
By his IMMENSE DESIRE to want to kiss me,he made me understand that a
"kiss on the lips" can be a beautiful thing!
Tags:Mr.green,lust,desire,want,kiss,Kiss_on_the_lips
"kiss on the lips" can be a beautiful thing!
Tags:Mr.green,lust,desire,want,kiss,Kiss_on_the_lips
I don't want the boy feeling ALONE
I see Mr.U and Miss.O together and the initial slight sadness in me
has now been replaced by " I am glad he has a feeling of happiness in
his heart while he is with her and he has a person by his side and
that makes him feel a little less lonely.I don't want the boy FEELING
THAT HE IS ALONE"
Tags:Mr.U,Ms.O,alone
has now been replaced by " I am glad he has a feeling of happiness in
his heart while he is with her and he has a person by his side and
that makes him feel a little less lonely.I don't want the boy FEELING
THAT HE IS ALONE"
Tags:Mr.U,Ms.O,alone
Mr.U is not the one for me?
Mr.U is not the one for me?
When did I realize that Mr.U is not the one for me? In july 2012 and
August 2012.It suddenly dawned on me that IT JUST IS NOT MEANT TO BE.
9 YEARS OF waste
NO?
Tags:Mr.U,Not_meant_to_be,soulmatee,replica
When did I realize that Mr.U is not the one for me? In july 2012 and
August 2012.It suddenly dawned on me that IT JUST IS NOT MEANT TO BE.
9 YEARS OF waste
NO?
Tags:Mr.U,Not_meant_to_be,soulmatee,replica
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Friday, October 19, 2012
George O Maley
George O Maley of Gray's Anatomy reminds me of Mr.U..
Mr.U is tall and lanky and has dark hair and eyes,quite UNLIKE how George O Maley looks..yet , perhaps this is how my heart views Mr.U
Mr.U is tall and lanky and has dark hair and eyes,quite UNLIKE how George O Maley looks..yet , perhaps this is how my heart views Mr.U
"Sweet cake on the side"syndrome!
Me: "I am not as easy as you would like me to be for your own
convenience.LOL.ya know have a girlfriend on the main plate, have a
sweet cake on the side..not fair, not ethical..not good to use me for
emotional support..I feel used when such a situation happens.(just
wanted to get it out)"
Him: "you certainly aren't a sweet cake on the side... far from it.
emotional support is the wrong word, remember I only communicate in XXX and broken english at best, not always easy to express like that , so maybe I am using you for emotional female interaction in my native toungue who understands more than what is said and written. I dont think this will change as this is me..".
convenience.LOL.ya know have a girlfriend on the main plate, have a
sweet cake on the side..not fair, not ethical..not good to use me for
emotional support..I feel used when such a situation happens.(just
wanted to get it out)"
Him: "you certainly aren't a sweet cake on the side... far from it.
emotional support is the wrong word, remember I only communicate in XXX and broken english at best, not always easy to express like that , so maybe I am using you for emotional female interaction in my native toungue who understands more than what is said and written. I dont think this will change as this is me..".
Zero contact for a year
Given to this day, I have had ZERO contact with Mr.green for a WHOLE YEAR !
When I say zero contact, it includes "not emailing him" and "not checking on his websites etc"..
AT this point, he might be living in my neighborhood and I WON'T KNOW IT..coz I am so OUT OF THE LOOP(voluntarily ofcourse)
Right now I am reading OUR EMAIL exchanges from Nov 2009 and all I want to do is PUKE!
I realize now that he started off with not wanting anything but a CASUAL AFFAIR..no other intent ever...How could I not SPOT THAT "lack of INTENT" BACK THEN?
When I say zero contact, it includes "not emailing him" and "not checking on his websites etc"..
AT this point, he might be living in my neighborhood and I WON'T KNOW IT..coz I am so OUT OF THE LOOP(voluntarily ofcourse)
Right now I am reading OUR EMAIL exchanges from Nov 2009 and all I want to do is PUKE!
I realize now that he started off with not wanting anything but a CASUAL AFFAIR..no other intent ever...How could I not SPOT THAT "lack of INTENT" BACK THEN?
Angry blogs
I just realized that a blog entry written during that exact fit of anger turns out to be slightly incohesive.Our mind is all warped up in anger during the time of blog composition.
Lance Armstrong-SPOOF quote
Spoof quotes are so MISLEADING..for one, unless you look closely at tags you might mistake it to be a REAL QUOTE.
This is in interesting SPOOF QUOTE made by TMN Contributing Writer Llewellyn Hinkes-Jones
as part of his SPOOF ARTICLE where he PRETENDS TO BE LANCE ARMSTRONG
You can find the original SATIRE piece here, http://www.themorningnews.org/article/marketstrong
START OF SPOOF QUOTE
" Embracing this ethos of pure holistic denial leads one to the path of transcendental disembodiment, allowing your spirit to abandon any sense of shame and separate itself from the torpid existence of the physical plane."
END OF SPOOF QUOTE
It is only when I reached the end of the article , when words like "erotic dawn" and "populist success" started appearing in the essay that I suddenly told myself "Hey ! lance doesn't have such an exhaustively floral english vocabulary at all...He speaks like a texan...come on! Is this a spoof?"
This is in interesting SPOOF QUOTE made by TMN Contributing Writer Llewellyn Hinkes-Jones
as part of his SPOOF ARTICLE where he PRETENDS TO BE LANCE ARMSTRONG
You can find the original SATIRE piece here, http://www.themorningnews.org/article/marketstrong
START OF SPOOF QUOTE
" Embracing this ethos of pure holistic denial leads one to the path of transcendental disembodiment, allowing your spirit to abandon any sense of shame and separate itself from the torpid existence of the physical plane."
END OF SPOOF QUOTE
It is only when I reached the end of the article , when words like "erotic dawn" and "populist success" started appearing in the essay that I suddenly told myself "Hey ! lance doesn't have such an exhaustively floral english vocabulary at all...He speaks like a texan...come on! Is this a spoof?"
Thursday, October 18, 2012
The Fat old men that I have warmed up to
Mr.Green has forever changed my impression of older, fatter ,slightly awkward ,men.
I will never ever look at them with the disdain I used to once have for them.
Because of Mr.Green, I now warm up to anyone who remotely reminds me of him,his annerisms,his awkward shyness or his age group(not necessarily exactly his age group, any old man will do!) .
These days , I see middle aged or older men and all I have is this "warmth" and "pity filled goodwill" and slight sexual attraction too(this, I find sad and disturbing)
Men whom I have recently warmed up to due to Mr.Green
1/Rick Stein
2/Gary Mehigan
3/That guy in the movie "Gods Must Be crazy"(got to watch it very recently)
BTW,Mr.Green is not OLD OLD..he is a good 10 years older than me though!
I will never ever look at them with the disdain I used to once have for them.
Because of Mr.Green, I now warm up to anyone who remotely reminds me of him,his annerisms,his awkward shyness or his age group(not necessarily exactly his age group, any old man will do!) .
These days , I see middle aged or older men and all I have is this "warmth" and "pity filled goodwill" and slight sexual attraction too(this, I find sad and disturbing)
Men whom I have recently warmed up to due to Mr.Green
1/Rick Stein
2/Gary Mehigan
3/That guy in the movie "Gods Must Be crazy"(got to watch it very recently)
BTW,Mr.Green is not OLD OLD..he is a good 10 years older than me though!
People that remind me of Mr.U
My subconscious mind has made a mental note of many characteristic traits,behavioral traits,appearance and body language of Mr.U..
When i notice one or more of these characterisitics in someone else, instantly I remember Mr.U , then I kinda miss him :((
People that remind me of Mr.U are
1/Fred savage of wonder years-well ,this kid looks like Mr.U when he was a kid..so yeah
2/Anthony Bourdain-The tallness,The lankiness, the awkwardness,The defiant babbling,The wanting to belong in each new irreverent gang,etc etc-all remind me of Mr.U
When i notice one or more of these characterisitics in someone else, instantly I remember Mr.U , then I kinda miss him :((
People that remind me of Mr.U are
1/Fred savage of wonder years-well ,this kid looks like Mr.U when he was a kid..so yeah
2/Anthony Bourdain-The tallness,The lankiness, the awkwardness,The defiant babbling,The wanting to belong in each new irreverent gang,etc etc-all remind me of Mr.U
Yet another cycle
Yet another cycle of the same incidents.
Dear Mr.U , If you don't make different choices, mistakes are bound to repeat.
Dear Mr.U , If you don't make different choices, mistakes are bound to repeat.
Stop watching so much porn
Dear Mr.U,
Stop watching so much porn..(So much porn that you get so wound up that you tap whatever comes your way.)Watch what you tap, it has implications,ya know!
Stop watching so much porn..(So much porn that you get so wound up that you tap whatever comes your way.)Watch what you tap, it has implications,ya know!
A flower shower then a slap on the face
I am still reading OUR emails AND most of them are like "flower showers" (atleast the ones I 'starred') and then I come across some really hurtful emails he wrote me and then suddenly it feels like a SLAP on the face!
Scardy Cat!
He used to call me "Scardy cat!"
Didn't quite get the reference till very recently when I watched the movie "Breakfast at Tiffany's" .
I don't think he meant it in that reference anyways.
BTW, the move is melodramatic,portrays women as hysteric crazy fools and I really really DIDN'T LIKE the movie...the fact that they call this movie a CHICKFLICK is even more insulting to us SMART WOMEN!
Didn't quite get the reference till very recently when I watched the movie "Breakfast at Tiffany's" .
I don't think he meant it in that reference anyways.
BTW, the move is melodramatic,portrays women as hysteric crazy fools and I really really DIDN'T LIKE the movie...the fact that they call this movie a CHICKFLICK is even more insulting to us SMART WOMEN!
Feeding the desire!
I should stop reading these old emails ..coz all I am doing is FEEDING THAT OLD DORMANT desire which we both once shared, all over again..
Was It true?
See, for me it was TRUE..
.For him? I really don't know at this point.
Maybe it was some cheap pastime that he does often with TOO many different people for it to mEAN anything important anymore.
for me? Yeah, it was deep, it was intense and I believed what he said he felt and wanted.
.For him? I really don't know at this point.
Maybe it was some cheap pastime that he does often with TOO many different people for it to mEAN anything important anymore.
for me? Yeah, it was deep, it was intense and I believed what he said he felt and wanted.
When Mr.U's Horny
Apparently Mr.U's "Horniness" trumps all "intentions to have intellectual companionship"
EVERY SINGLE TIME..
Good luck with this one,
Let yet another part of your soul die a quiet death and you won't even be there to notice it this time!
EVERY SINGLE TIME..
Good luck with this one,
Let yet another part of your soul die a quiet death and you won't even be there to notice it this time!
Olivia and the One that got away!
She called him "The one that got away" and He called her "olivia"..
Now they are together where they do what they fantasized for a couple of years now!
Now they are together where they do what they fantasized for a couple of years now!
Scoffing at Older,Ill shapen men!pity mixed fetish driven sympathy
I used to scoff at older,ill-shapen men prior to Mr.green.
After having experienced mr.green(who is himself an older,ill shapen,troubled,confused man)on a very intimate level,
Now there is a pity-mixed,fetish driven, empathy for such men in my heart..
Mr.green made me look deeper into the troubles of drunk,older, illshaped men...
These men have younger aggressive men hidden in their souls,don't they?
After having experienced mr.green(who is himself an older,ill shapen,troubled,confused man)on a very intimate level,
Now there is a pity-mixed,fetish driven, empathy for such men in my heart..
Mr.green made me look deeper into the troubles of drunk,older, illshaped men...
These men have younger aggressive men hidden in their souls,don't they?
La Tortura!
As I was reading our old emails between mr.green and I from feb 2011, I suddenly came across this email I wrote to him about LA TORTURA...
Nice cute letter about why I like it.Here goes
"I like La tortura, cause the voices are crooning and brazilian drums get me..and Alesandro sanz' voice is as crooning and sensual as is shakira when essentially here in this song, his voice is more high pitched and hers is low pitched..The lyrics work really well too"
Nice cute letter about why I like it.Here goes
"I like La tortura, cause the voices are crooning and brazilian drums get me..and Alesandro sanz' voice is as crooning and sensual as is shakira when essentially here in this song, his voice is more high pitched and hers is low pitched..The lyrics work really well too"
We fight,we fight,we fight ,we fight
I was just reading old emails from feb 2011 between mr.green and I and the only remark I uttered to myself was, " We fight, we fight, we love, we fight, we fight, we love, we fight, fight fight fight"
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
If that is what he wants
I am sure he thought a lot before doing what he is doing .If he is sure that that is what he wants , then he must have it.
The Accusation?
Being Gay is NOT A CRIME, and hence, When I called you gay, I didn't MEAN it to be an accusation.It was merely a statement.
Under the bus
You see, It IS NEVER POSSIBLE for a person who truly loved you to throw you under the bus..It is only because it was all so trivial that he could so easily drop the towel and throw me under the bus.
Looking at pictures of girlfriends
While you swallow hard your pride and be the "friend" and look up all the pictures of his various girlfriends on facebook, I swallow my pride and look up at the pictures of your WIFE on your facebook
...you love him more than you love your wife and You love your wife more than you loved me...YOU NEVER LOVED ME...ever!
...you love him more than you love your wife and You love your wife more than you loved me...YOU NEVER LOVED ME...ever!
Grief for his man
Aaaah, I get it, He is grieving for the man that left him ,to fend for himself alone, after 12 years.A LONG LOVE THAT!
Nameless,faceless
Just because someone is NAMELESS and FACELESS doesn't mean they are also soulless and emotionless and mindless.
Songs that get me all sexually worked up!
As of October 2012, songs that get me all sexually turned on or sexually worked up are
1/Kings of leon-Sex is on fire
2/Norah Jones-Chasing pirates
3/Muse-Madness
4/Maroon 5-She will be loved
5/Brutally in love -This song is from the sound track of the 2004 movie THE FREEDIVER(Can someone tell me who wrote and sang this song?)
I have a few more songs, which I can't quite recall off the bat ...another blog entry perhaps?
1/Kings of leon-Sex is on fire
2/Norah Jones-Chasing pirates
3/Muse-Madness
4/Maroon 5-She will be loved
5/Brutally in love -This song is from the sound track of the 2004 movie THE FREEDIVER(Can someone tell me who wrote and sang this song?)
I have a few more songs, which I can't quite recall off the bat ...another blog entry perhaps?
No time He says!
He says," I have no time to talk for long hours" then spends hours and hours browsing the net
Could I have been a carrot too?
When I say, Mr.u was the carrot at the end of her divorce,I have to ask myself,"Could I have been the carrot in the beginning of mr.green's marriage?"
Absolutely NOT, coz mr.green is too calculative to make such rash decisions.Every decision has to have materialistic implications! Moreover, I think he is more gay than bisexual.
Absolutely NOT, coz mr.green is too calculative to make such rash decisions.Every decision has to have materialistic implications! Moreover, I think he is more gay than bisexual.
Was he the carrot at the end of her divorce?
Was Mr.U the carrot at the end of her Divorce?
ABSOLUTELY and unanimously , YES!
ABSOLUTELY and unanimously , YES!
Can Cyber sex be called REAL sex?
How real is Internet sex?
Well,If it gets your D*ck hard and your V*g**a wet, It IS JUST AS REAL AS "REAL" SEX.
No?
It is as real as "physical sex with contraceptives" .
Both "internet sex" and "contraceptive sex" don't give babies and STDs.Good that way.
BUT, the mental aspect of it is JUST AS REAL ,if not "even more REAL"...
COZ IN INTERNET SEX ,THE MIND IS DOING ALL THE WORK AND LOVE AND GETTING TURNED ON . People are sheerly getting turned on by words..Amazing this , the power of the mind.Tells us that LOVE AND SEX ARE MORE ABOUT THE MIND than we ever believed in the past.
Well,If it gets your D*ck hard and your V*g**a wet, It IS JUST AS REAL AS "REAL" SEX.
No?
It is as real as "physical sex with contraceptives" .
Both "internet sex" and "contraceptive sex" don't give babies and STDs.Good that way.
BUT, the mental aspect of it is JUST AS REAL ,if not "even more REAL"...
COZ IN INTERNET SEX ,THE MIND IS DOING ALL THE WORK AND LOVE AND GETTING TURNED ON . People are sheerly getting turned on by words..Amazing this , the power of the mind.Tells us that LOVE AND SEX ARE MORE ABOUT THE MIND than we ever believed in the past.
He has made a choice and I must let him be
Each time I go to the bathroom for a tinkle, A small "tweet like Thought" occurs to me..Just now a few minutes ago I tweet-thought one more, here goes
"He has made a choice and I must let him be"
This tweet is about the lovely Mr.U aka Mr.Grey
"He has made a choice and I must let him be"
This tweet is about the lovely Mr.U aka Mr.Grey
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
My First Blog description for LECINQBLOG-ABOUT THIS BLOG
As of October 2012, This is my blog description for this blog
"Compilation of my Tweets,Shortest Blog entries,Screenshots of my older tweets and other ONE-LINERS of mine!"
It is always a habit of mine to keep a record of everything..coz , dang it, MEMORIES ARE SO FAULTY otherwise!
"Compilation of my Tweets,Shortest Blog entries,Screenshots of my older tweets and other ONE-LINERS of mine!"
It is always a habit of mine to keep a record of everything..coz , dang it, MEMORIES ARE SO FAULTY otherwise!
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