The Fat old men that I have warmed up to

Mr.Green has forever changed my impression of older, fatter ,slightly awkward ,men.
I will never ever look at them with the disdain I used to once have for them.

Because of Mr.Green, I now warm up to anyone who remotely reminds me of him,his annerisms,his awkward shyness or his age group(not necessarily exactly his age group, any old man will do!) .

These days , I see middle aged or older men and all I have is this "warmth" and "pity filled goodwill" and slight sexual attraction too(this, I find sad and disturbing)

Men whom I have recently warmed up to due to Mr.Green
1/Rick Stein
2/Gary Mehigan
3/That guy in the movie "Gods Must Be crazy"(got to watch it very recently)

BTW,Mr.Green is not OLD OLD..he is  a good 10 years older than me though!

People that remind me of Mr.U

My subconscious mind has made a mental note of many characteristic traits,behavioral traits,appearance and body language of Mr.U..
When i notice one or more of these characterisitics in someone else, instantly I remember Mr.U , then I kinda miss him :((

People that remind  me of Mr.U are
1/Fred savage of wonder years-well ,this kid looks like Mr.U when he was a kid..so yeah

2/Anthony Bourdain-The tallness,The lankiness, the awkwardness,The defiant babbling,The wanting to belong in each new irreverent gang,etc etc-all remind me of Mr.U

I talk a lot

I do talk a lot on some days.

Yet another cycle

Yet another cycle of the same incidents.
Dear Mr.U , If you don't make different choices, mistakes are bound to repeat.

Stop watching so much porn

Dear Mr.U,
Stop watching so much porn..(So much porn that you get so wound up that you tap whatever comes your way.)Watch what you tap, it has implications,ya know!

He has no time

"I have no time" he says

Ovulating

Definitely!

A flower shower then a slap on the face

I am still reading OUR emails AND most of them are like "flower showers" (atleast the ones I 'starred') and then I come across some really hurtful emails he wrote me and then suddenly it feels like a SLAP on the face!

Scardy Cat!

He used to call me "Scardy cat!"

Didn't quite get the reference till very recently when I watched the movie "Breakfast at Tiffany's" .
I don't think he meant it in that reference anyways.

BTW, the move is melodramatic,portrays women as hysteric crazy fools and I really really DIDN'T LIKE the movie...the fact that they call this movie a CHICKFLICK is even more insulting to us SMART WOMEN!

Feeding the desire!

I should stop reading these old emails ..coz all I am doing is FEEDING THAT OLD DORMANT desire which we both once shared, all over again..

Was It true?

See, for me it was TRUE..
.For him? I really don't know at this point.
Maybe it was some cheap pastime that he does often with TOO many different people for it to mEAN anything important anymore.
for me? Yeah, it was deep, it was intense and I believed what he said he felt and wanted.

When Mr.U's Horny

Apparently Mr.U's  "Horniness" trumps all "intentions to have intellectual companionship"
EVERY SINGLE TIME..
Good luck with this one,
Let yet another part of your soul die a quiet death  and you won't even be there to notice it this time!

Olivia and the One that got away!

She called him "The one that got away" and He called her "olivia"..
Now they are together where they do what they fantasized for a couple of years now!

Scoffing at Older,Ill shapen men!pity mixed fetish driven sympathy

I used to scoff at older,ill-shapen men prior to Mr.green.

After having experienced mr.green(who is himself an older,ill shapen,troubled,confused man)on a very intimate level,
Now there is a pity-mixed,fetish driven, empathy for such men in my heart..
Mr.green made me look deeper into the troubles of drunk,older, illshaped men...
These men have younger aggressive men hidden in their souls,don't they?

La Tortura!

As I was reading our old emails between mr.green and I from feb 2011, I suddenly came across this email I wrote to him about LA TORTURA...

Nice cute letter about why I like it.Here goes

"I like La tortura, cause  the voices are crooning and brazilian drums get me..and Alesandro sanz' voice is as crooning and sensual as is shakira when essentially here in this song, his voice is more high pitched and hers is low pitched..The lyrics work really well too"

We fight,we fight,we fight ,we fight

I was just reading old emails from feb 2011 between mr.green and I and the only remark I uttered to myself was, " We fight, we fight, we love, we fight, we fight, we love, we fight, fight fight fight"

Spending someone's Yearly living expenses on a watch!