Feb journals in march-same eyes

each time i see a good picture of mr.u, I note that his eyes are the
exact shape and the exact color down to the dark ring at the edge and
exact shade of brown as mine...wow.spooky

Feb journals in march-buck tooth rotten mouth kiss

I am itching to ask.how does it feel to kiss someone with buck teeth
and periodontitis with poor oral hygeine.also someone with a lot of
baggage to boot

Feb journals in march-stalker galore

I am definitely not going to interact with you on public platforms in
full view of your stalkers, coz they start stalking me too.I hate
invasion of my privacy

QUOTE BLOG-jason talks about guitar learning

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http://jasonmraz.com/journal/2013/correction-centered/

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When I first picked up a guitar at 17, my fingers hurt, and my head
couldn't fathom how the fret-board worked. Becoming a guitar player
seemed insurmountable, but I wanted to sing and accompany myself, and
the guitar was the sexiest fit for the nomadic lifestyle I was
choosing. It was a rough start with slow forming, out-of-tune chords,
but compassion for myself kept the guitar buzzing on my lap while I
hummed thoughts higher than any reason to quit. The silent agreement I
made with my soul was that I'd allow myself to suffer until I was 40.
And by that, I would not let any scowls of disapproval from family or
community distract me from my goal of becoming a guitar player.
Compassion gave me the green light.
END OF QUOTE

QUOTE BLOG-jason quotes cooperation and compassion

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http://jasonmraz.com/journal/2013/correction-centered/

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Where I wrote "cooperation" would be the #1 best thing we could be
doing to better the environment and save humanity, I would like to
change that to Compassion. With compassion, the understanding or
empathy for the suffering of others, cooperation would naturally
follow suit
END OF QUOTE

QUOTE BLOG-jason quote belief systems and bickering

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Maybe I'll finally have a solid belief system by then. Or not. Beliefs
don't equal survival either. If anything, certainty of one's beliefs
only leads to bickering. (and that I am certain.) See any thread of
online news comments, or even the comments to follow this lengthy
labyrinth of an op-ed for proof. But whether I think my glass is half
full or half empty, which varies almost daily, I'm just glad there's
still something in the glass to drink. I've got pills to swallow after
all. And toasts to make.
END OF QUOTE

QUOTE BLOG-jason quote aholes and multipel choice lists

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http://jasonmraz.com/journal/2013/how-to-remove-headache-stains/

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Humans aren't a-holes by nature. A-holeness is a bi-product of a) not
wanting to do the work, b) hoping that our money or weapons will do
the heavy lifting for us, c) assuming we're separate from each other,
and d) making multiple choice lists.
END OF QUOTE

quote blog-JASON quote about murderous overconsuming hoarders

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And in that moment, they forgot they were made of the same stuff as
the stars, and all the basic elements of Earth. And we've been riding
that wave as murderous, over-consuming, hoarders ever since.
END OF QUOTE

QUOTE BLOG-jason talks about speceism and agricultural revolution and property fights

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Man's obvious dominance has been occurring since the agricultural
revolution more than 10,000 years ago. As someone who dabbles in
farming, I can understand the theory that suggests the same season we
discovered farming was the same season we added property lines and
fences to protect the fruits and vegetables of our labor. The
hunter-gatherer days were behind us from then on, and stock piling
resources became the path to each family's survival. Earning a wage to
pay for food, or land, meant our lords were no longer nature itself,
but other humans. And if animals wanted to eat our food, we'd just
kill them. But if the animal IS food, we'd lock them up and help them
multiply. Farming really showed off our true speciesism and the human
population has exploded exponentially ever since.
END OF QUOTE

QUOTE BLOG-jason talks about food water money and war

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But consider for a moment the fact that in today's world, money =
survival. Not food or water, but money. Why? Because food and water
are behind lock and key and only money (or guns) can open it.
Therefore, so long as food and water are locked up, there will always
be war. Always. And there will always be famine. And poverty. And
somehow we're all okay with that, so long as there's money to be made.
We just shrug and assume this is how life is supposed to go. I think
most of us play along because a) it feels like a game or b) we watch
too much tv/porn to care, or c) it's been going on for so long, it's
not really our fault nor problem to deal with so who wants fries? or
d) all of the above.
END OF QUOTE

QUOTE BLOG-JASON talks about yoga

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http://jasonmraz.com/journal/2013/the-benefits-of-a-happy-ending/

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My request: If there's anyone out there who loves lululemon and knows
anyone at the school districts, speak up on behalf of yoga. It's
basically stretching and isometrics, the same you would find during a
warm-up for square dancing or dodge ball, but organized in a way that
will improve the health and mentality of every practitioner and not
insult them. It's non-aggressive, non-competitive, non-religious, and
nowhere near dangerous. I've never seen anyone sprain an ankle or
break a nose in a yoga class. If anything it teaches compassion,
patience and focus. And humility. If you fart.

END OF QUOTE

kind and giving plunder

KIND AND GIVING ,kind and giving and people just want to plunder the
kind giver till the giver is left with nothing and has to start high
and dry after giving.

videos-singing voice

found videos of myself from 2005 where i seem to have had the wisdom
to record myself singing my favorite songs.boy, I DO SING SO
WELL,BLESS ME!

videos-snacks and jokes

found videos of myself from 2005 making snacks and explaining them and
making giggly jokes while i am at it.No wonder men just fall in love
with me like that

videos-laundry journals

found videos of myself from 2005 doing laundry and doing a video
journal while doing laundry explaining why i love living
alone.awww,cuteness!

videos -elvis

found videos of myself from 2005 where i am sewing and explaining
elvis's lifestory to my mom..I am such a chirpy bird,If i may say so
myself.....awww

Miss olivia-playing for the galleries

Miss olivia-playing for the galleries-
every move is to show everyone she is doing well.
The fact that she feels the need to do that says SHE IS NOT DOING WELL.

CRAZY BOQUET LADY

CRAZY BOQUET LADY,
why so much rejoicing over catching the wedding boquet?
weren't you married before and did you not fuck it up royally?
what?
you want to get married every two years and fuck it all up each time?
or wait , are the sponsors paying you to showcase wedding gear?

Deceptive fuckheads

i don't trust the integrity of people who secretly read my journal and
then come try to talk to me about the same topics i write in my
journal.
Deceptive fuckheads!

dawn on you

it is day one now, and by the tenth day and by the sixth month it will
finally dawn on you that i am gone forever..yet again.coulda shoulda
woulda?

glowing in neverlove

I am glowing in your love these days.
NEVER knew we would meet like this again
after a decade.
NEVER IN MY WILDEST DREAMS

figuring out ten years

at this point in life?
you need me more than i need you!
infact? I DON'T NEED YOU AT ALL.
I figured out how to run my life without you TEN YEARS AGO,
when you left me wondering what happened there!

a confident man

I want a confident guy
who wants me while he is confident.
coz i am worth that.
I don't want a guy who is insecure a
nd chooses me coz he is not confident.
THAT PUTS ME DOWN...i deserve a confident man.

advantageous real

I know i really love you .
there is real love!
But ,the situation almost looks like ,
YOU ARE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME
and i am taking advantange of you too.

SO, this love we have now?
IT IS NOT REAL.
It is circumstancial.
IT IS REAL but yet not real

lesser

I don't want to feel lesser than somebody else just coz you don't know
how to love properly.

now?

oh, NOW, now you want to marry me?
You DON'T know the value of a good thing when you actually have it ,
but want it after it gets lost?
BLAH!

sleep over this

I am gonna sleep over this each day every night
till finally i can forget this like it never happened.
I OWE THIS FAVOR TO MYSELF.

you and me

i am just UPSET you know ,
i am just upset about a lot of things.
WE COULD HAVE HAD A whole ten years together by now.
A WHOLE ten years of perfect love bliss.
JUST YOU AND ME..
and you went and ruined it by marrying someone else...
(THIS IS MAKING ME CRY, don't you understand)

alone happy!

Maybe i am destined to LIVE ALONE all my life
and this is fine proposition
as long as i have a long HEALTHY LIFE
and i can take care of myself
and do justice to all my talents
and make something out of them..
THAT IS ALL I WANT.
alone makes me happy,actually!

compromising right mind?

You are not in your right mind right now
and neither am i in my right mind right now
judging by what i am feeling
and how i am behaving and
because neither of us is in their right mind,
WE CAN'T CALL THIS LOVE..
this is not love,
THIS IS "COMPROMISE" for both of us

utter

I think of him
and then utter, " my baby!!"
and then i cry some buckets of tears.

I AM SO TOUCHY right now.JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

tattoos and kids

you can remove tattoos
but you can't send a kid back into the womb can you?
AND I LOVE KIDS
and because of that i can't NOT LOVE the kid,
the kid you had with someone else after you left me to fend for myself.
THAT KID, i am going to sit and love ,
coz i innately don't have it in me to NOT LOVE a kid..
because kids warm my heart.

own you for a bit- containing rivers and oceans-the megalomaniac

i wanted to own you a certain way at a certan point in life.
alas, that couldn't happen.
NOW I CAN'T OWN YOU THE WAY I ONCE WANTED.
too much water under the bridge
and who can contain moving water, right?
that is a whole ocean to own if i wanted to own rivers that went under
the bridge .
and that is not possible even if i fancy myself to be a megalomaniac.

not mine anymore

he is sweet
and he is going through a lot,
i can understand ,
but HE IS NOT MINE TO HAVE ANYMORE..(cries profusely)

try me

i did my best.
I TAUGHT YOU WHAT REAL LOVE IS ALL ABOUT .
I told you to try me and i allowed you to try me.
I DID MY BIT.
now i must go,
because if i stayed anymore,
THE REAL ME WILL VANISH
AND I WILL BECOME A SHADOW OF THE REAL ME.
i have nothing left in me to give you without actually losing
something in the process.
SO, i need to go now, i need to go now.

withdrawing power

see, now i know that you do love me..
NOW YOU DO LOVE ME
and now i have all the power in the world
AND I DON''T WANT TO BE THAT PERSON THAT ABUSES POWER.
which is why i am withdrawing.
I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE THAT PERSON

functional depressions

I need to learn a way to STAY FUNCTIONAL even in my deepest of depressions.
I NEED TO CONTINUE TO FUNCTION come rain or shine ;
because life and time are too precious to be wasted like that.

yet again!

now i won't email you anymore.
because you have had enough of my words so far.
words enough to last you a lifetime.
it hurts me to know it won't amount to anything, yet again.

why again!

I don't want to talk to you anymore.
I WILL be RELIEVED when all this finally will be a distant memory.
the faster it fades the better it is for me.
ENOUGH, AND NOT AGAIN and again and again.
why?why again?

happen to

you see,
i want to walk away before you start transforming into that parasitic monster,
the kind of monster i have come to know too well
and I DON'T HAVE IT IN ME
TO ALLOW that kind of emotional abuse happen to me.ever again!

tags

1/unstable
2/drama
3/bipolar?(wtf)
4/diatribe

unknowingly

i thought real hard before i started to talk to you again because i
knew I WOULD CRY LIKE I DID .
but i wanted this chance to talk coz i wanted to let you know what
kinda damage you did back then to me, whether knowingly or
unknowingly!

cry baby

anyways i am crying even if am talking to you.
might as well stop talking to you , CRY IT OUT, DRY THE TEARS OUT AND
MOVE ON.seriously!

fiercely lastng

you love just like i do.
YOU LOVE FIERCELY AND PROTECT FIERCELY THE ONE YOU LOVE.
too bad you don't love me and all your fierce protection is reserved for others.
even if you offer me that now, I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE.
i wanted it once and NOW I DON'T WANT IT,COZ,SEE,someone else offered
their fierce protective love AFTER you left me, love enough to last me
a lifetime and to keep me feeling like a queen for all my life.

overkill

i want you to want me for me..i am worth that , don't you think? i
don't want you want me coz you are lonely.I AM AN OVERKILL for that
purpose