give take

the problem right now is YOU ARE FAST BECOMING USED TO me giving and
giving without you giving anything back to a point where you think you
are doing me a favor by taking what i am giving out to you so
generously

titbits

it is either exclusive or it is NOTHING, i don't go around giving
titbits and pretend it is not something it actually is...i want pure,
i want whole!

hurt window

you opened up the slight window and that hurts even more now!

the glimpse

i can't share.sorry!
but yeah, this is just plain sad,
the glimpse of what could have been between us
and THE KNOWLEDGE of what happened with you that opened up this glimpse,
I COULD HAVE VERY WELL done without the glimpse ,
coz ,by now , i was already resigned to the fact that it was not gonna
happen between us.

jizz

a jizz receptacle?
.and words like "jizz" .
is semen such a bad sounding word or more obscene than jizz?

fantasy throwup

I am okay with fantasizing about mr purple against the backdrop of us
having these occasional talks where i know he is crazy about me and
wants me now,
but, then,
the whole thought of me actually NEEDING TO FULLY COMMIT TO HIM AND
MARRY him makes me want to throw up in anxiety somehow..

FANTASIES WITH HIM ARE WORKING but i DON'T WANT TO REALLY REALLY GET
DOWN AND DIRTY WITH HIM..
.hmmmm.
he is NOT making me feel free like mr pink does..

I DON'T WANT TO FEEL PRESSURE WHEN I AM TRYING TO EXPERIENCE SOMEONE'S
SOUL AND BODY...
you have to let me be , let me feel free, with no pressure to say yes
to anything in the future..
I WANT TO KNOW IF I TRULY FEEL FREE WITH YOU ...

i feel so much pressure with mr.purple, LIKE HE WANTS TO OWN ME AND
IMPRISON ME and that scares me a lot...
I DON'T TRUST PEOPLE who feel the need to imprison other people..
says to me THEY ARE HIDING SOME MONSTROSITY THAT THEY ARE READY TO
UNLEASH once they get me good and then I AM STUCK WITH THEM...

boston babe

I am one of those idiots who actually reads a book about boston and
then will kiss that book coz she misses boston so much..
I don't know why i do that...
BOSTON EVOKES immense nostalgia in me..immense desire to go back there
and live there forever...
take the T, WALK THE GARDEN, enjoy the waterfront...
just live there eternally ..
.I AM A TRUE BOSTON BABE THAT WAY

never mine

i need to break up with him right now.
i KNOW I WILL MISS HIM a lifetime after this breakup and
I know there will be a VOID in my soul if i break up with him and let him go.
.but I OWE THIS TO MYSELF.
i have learned to live without him for ten years, so be it for a lifetime..
HE IS NOT MINE, never was meant to be(tears up slightly)

punchy acquaintance

when you utter the word acquaintance each time, all i want to do is
punch you in the face, and then run away, hide under the table and
cry!

tear leading

I AM CONSTANTLY preventing myself from getting TOO CARRIED AWAY with
you.coz this will lead to a lot of tears later if i let you have me
now.
I CAN'T, I SHOULDN'T

HEARTACHE MR.U

there is too much heartache involved with the mr.u association.
IT IS ALMOST LIKE you go through the bumps along with him while he
goes through his motions and THAT IS A VERY DRAINING TIRING
EXPERIENCE.

by 2008, I was so tired of him that by the time I FINALLY FOUND
MR.PINK in aug 2008,

BY OCT 2008, I HAD TO WRITE A happy "dumping email" to mr.u...
THAT IS HOW RELIEVED I WAS TO LET HIM GO .hmmmmm..sigh

20 yr old picnics

I want to leave you alone for six months and see how this thing with
this twenty year old plays out,coz you see ,you went on a picnic with
her amidst and inspite of all the shit you were in and you are in..

The net result of sorry

maybe,all i am trying to do right now is MAKE YOU FEEL sorry that you
didn't choose me back then
and that is such a NON productive exercise for me to indulge in.
NET RESULT? ZERO,atleast for me.

march to march

this march yet again, I NEED TO STAND BACK AND WATCH..
i need to stand back and watch for a year to see how this plays out in
your life WHEN I AM GONE..
then you choose whom you really want
and then you choose what your mind deeply wants ..
I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS EQUATION FOR ATLEAST A YEAR OR MORE..

and if after a year I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING TO YOU, i must not EVER
EMAIL YOU.....

i NEED TO TAKE CARE OF ME TOO..i must come first to me

march watching

each march,all i am doing is "standing back and watching"
and each year it a new man i watch give me a lot of inconsiderate
insensitive heartache..
why oh why

acquaii what?

i keep telling you i want "exclusivity"
and you keep saying, "yeah sure"
and then you go on day long outings with "pretty female acquaitances"
i smell trouble

i should not be needing to ask for exclusivity,
your mind should be so in love that it wants to be exclusive..
but you are just this dog sniffing after tail
that is not love
this is not love

advantage

I am taking advantage of you, don't you understand?

french menus

SOMETIMES i just like reading things aloud off of french menu
booklets..I LIKE HEARING MYSELF SPEAK IN FRENCH...:)))

angry q

coz, I realized that the answers to the questions i would ask him
would only make me HATE HIM and dislike him and make me so angry.

meddie kiddies

at the age of 35 ,as a smart female physician,who can make an accurate
diagnosis in 1 min,for me, it was cute to watch second year med
students speculate so much about a simple diagnosis.KIDS!

pistor purple

I Just read a news article about this pistorius guy(the special
olympics guy) who accidentally shot and killed his gf?
and shockingly the first person that came to my mind is mr purple AND
that scared the shit out of me

question stop

DO you know why i stopped asking any questions to mr black beyond a
certain point of our dating duration"?

flat chested player

now, play with your flat chested long haired wife,
go,do that!
that manipulative scheming asshole suits the two faced manipulative
asshole that you are, truly!

repulsive combo

you are, you are irresponsible and you are a womanizer and you are
money crazy and that is replusive combo for me to be around with

dysfunctionality soup

men like you deserve women like your wife..you both deserve each
other..dysfunctionality soup!

kid becking

she is gonna keep using the excuse of the kid to keep talking to you
and keep you at her beck and call and i can't sit and watch that each
day,buh bye now!

train wreck shows

I just said a lot of things and they are all gonna happen and i don't
want to sit there and watch that trainwreck all over again.
TOO MANY TRAINWRECK SHOWS already watched!

time sharing

with you , exclusivity is NEVER possible ever, coz i now always have
to share your time and attention with your scheming ex..

jerk protector

YOU THE KIND OF JERK that you seem to claim ,you save other
girlfriends of jerks from ,
and for a little bit there, I WAS THAT GIRLFRIEND of that jerk that is you!

SUDDEN ROUNDABOUT

oh ,so now ,you are going pretend to be that "responsible husband" and
i must help you in pretending that way in your "sudden roundabout",
WTF!

protector of feelings

she didn't take any action for the whole year that you slept downstairs
and NOW, she learns to behave,coz you moved out?
and this is the woman whose feelings you are going to protect by not
expressing your feelings to me?
GOOD LUCK WITH THAT FUCKTARD...

feet sitter

those are the kind of women you deserve ,buddy,coz,
you have tendencies to disrespect women who are better than those
women whose feet you sit at!

decision

i have a lot of things to do with my life and you are not going to be
part of it and it was a good decision to have left you behind ten
years ago.GREAT DECISION.

LESS

what you think IS THAT i deserve is a man who is still in love with
another woman and is only trying to be with me as a distraction from
the pain of having been rejected by her.

NOT THAT she is better than me, but you you make me feel less by
making ME a distraction from such a lesser woman.

QUOTE BLOG-quoting michael pollan where he talks about "difficult to make treats"

Here i am quoting michael pollan ( food activist)

here goes

QUOTE

If you've ever made french fries, you have to wash the potatoes, peel
the potatoes, you have to slice the potatoes, you have to fry them in
a lot of oil, you have to spatter your entire stovetop, you have to
clean up and then you have this pot of oil that you have to get rid
of. I mean it's really difficult and it's a pain. They're wonderful,
but it's a pain. And if you make them yourself, you'll only eat them
once every six weeks or two months because it's too much work

UNQUOTE


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tHANKS TO >laughingsquid< FOR POINTING ME TO THIS ARTICLE where i
first read it .

>laughingsquid< a while ago,posted a link to an RSA SHORT where michael pollan explains how people are consuming "difficult to make" treats in large amounts primarily because they are now easily available at stores to buy and eat.

This is a TINY EXCERPT that laughing squid posted on their website
regarding his video and since THIS excerpt PRETTY MUCH , beautifully
summarizes the whole idea of what he is trying to say, I AM JUST
PLAINLY REPOSTING their excerpt as is.
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>Laughingsquid< said "This is the link to the ORIGINAL RSA SHORT where Renowned author, journalist and food activist Michael Pollan explains how cooking at home is much healthier than getting food from the outside in this two-and-a-half minute animated RSA short produced by Damn Fine Media."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=N7Ty8HoIEEg

In this RSA short, Food Writer Michael Pollan Explains Why Cooking at
Home is Much Healthier Than Eating Out
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tags: #Michael_pollan, #obesity_in_america , #obesity_in_the_world ,
#obesity_due_to_food_surplus #desserts #emotional_overeating
#food_porn #food #nutrition
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This is a simultaneous double post on the following blogs
the-ultimate-vegetarian-cookblog.blogspot.com
lecinqblog.blogspot.com