crying,low immunity

If I cry so much each day, I will end up will low immunity just like
in 2011...don't cry A, don't
tags:cry

affected

I don't think he ANY idea how much HIS Behavior has AFFECTED ME...in a
sad,bad, damaging way :(((
Tags:mr_green

Funny how your behavior is

as if you are some kind of innocent victim and i am some kinda
stalker..seriously,,I have no idea, why in this past year, you keep
visiting my blog.and now you run away when i directly email you?wtf?
silly self denial behavior...

dumb,untrustworthy but sexy?

So essentially I DON'T think you are intelligent, I actually think you are dumb
i think you have no language skills and no originality or creativity
I also think that you are NOT TRUSTWORTHY in the least bit
yet I am IMMENSELY SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO YOU..
yeah, i don't think you are good looking either, i think you are fat
and paunchy and have man boobs..
and yet I GET SEXUALLY TURNED ON BY YOU when i see a good photo of yours..
so, that does that say about me?how much of self loathing must i have
to be sexually attracted like THIS
Tags:mr_green,dumb,sexy

the number of cries

The number of times I have cried thinking about what damage you did to
me by throwing me under the bus like that has officially surpassed
even the number of time i have cried for the good for nothing
boyfriend of five years i had during med school and trust me , he was
utterly undeserving of one minute of my time.
tags:crying

watch showcase?

if you are a right hander,then why are you holding the wine goblet
with your left hand while your right hand is free, while posing for
that picture;I suspect you wanted the fancy watch on your left wrist
show clearly in the pic;;oh what a material vain person ya are....and
what do I find attractive in you inspite of all your such flaws
tags:mr_green,vanity,wealth_showcase,party_idiotic_tics

respect for the dog leasher?

I dont understand this,
you feel respect and sense of responsibility for the woman who thought
it was fair and appropriate to just pick up one of your rings from
your collection and just wear it and call it an engagement ring and
then later also force you to wear an engagement ring...THAT MY FRIEND
is called a calculative person who has no respect for spontaneity
..that my friend is a person who bargains the milk, for the cow that
she considers herself to be
and yet , you thought it was okay to diss me ,the one person , who
WANTED nothing from you except words...
YOU MY FRIEND, ARE AN IDIOT and therefore deserve only such a
calculative dog leasher woman like your wife and in a way I AM HAPPY,
given what you did to me, that YOU DIDN'T GET ME AND NOW ARE STUCK
WITH HER..thanks for making it easy for me to stop feeling so so bad
that we won't get together ever.
tags:ms_ugly,mr_green
p.s, maybe you both are the same,,soul less folks who bargain mundane
stuff to be able to give company in life..that what you do now is NOT
LOVE...it is an adjustment and an arrangement

last name

I have no understanding of why WOMEN are changing their last name
after marriage.and why are MEN not changing their last name after
marriage...Why ?
tags:last_names,commodification_of_women,property

didnt' want to give them the satisfaction

I am very happy that i didnt end up getting married to any of my ex
boyfriend who are now married to other women..I AM VERY HAPPY that i
didn['t give them the satisfaction that they GOT me for
themselves....good.
tags:me

ashamed and self doubt

I am ashamed that I still have feelings for a person that publicly
humiliated me ...if I managed to get so sexually turned on by a man
who is so utterly flawed and irresponsibility, then I SELF DOUBT about
my sanity..I must truly have some self esteem issues, no? to love such
a man, no?
tags:Mr_green,love

walking away angrily

Just as I try to walk way angrily with my back facing you, you quickly
grab me from behind with hands around my stomach and grab me harder
and NOT LET ME GO AND then you kiss me on my neck...at that place, you
often used to mention you want to kiss me, at the nape of my neck and
tags:sex,foreplay,mr_green

How do I know I love you?

well for one, as long as I completely shut all memory of you out...i
was controlling myself and yet , when i see rick stein on TV,,I would
go all mushy coz he reminds me of you.
and when I was searching for old letters that i wrote to mr.u, in the
inbox, I accidentally came across the ones you sent me and i sent you
and in a day, I FORGET ALL ABOUT MR.U,, and all i remember is you ,
day in and day out..just you
i forgot the boyfriend from med school that I fretted over having
broken up with the whole time i dated this other guy, whom I hated and
then i fretted over this guy i hated after i broke up with him then i
fretted about mr u and this other guy that I almost dated and IN A
MINUTE of reading those old emails from you, i don[t care about
remembering any of them...it is just you in my head all the time.
tags:love

THE FUCK STORY

I tell you , " I WANT TO BE FUCKED" AND then you while in that living
room wearing that black tshirt that hides your paunch, take me to the
nearby bedroom and I allow you to fuck me, PAUNCH AND ALL,, though I
told you , man boobs and puanches sexually repel me
tags:sex,fuck_story

own up

own up your fucking love for me ..that is what I am saying.
that dangerous, all consuming, obsessive love you have for me, that
you are hiding deep beneath from everyone else
tags:love,OCD,MR_GREEN

Your face between my palms

I want to hold your face between my palms and I want to press them
against your cheeks and smile at you ...like you would at a child and
then pull your close and giv e you a bear hug and kiss on the
shoulder...awww, my baby
tags:mr_green,kiss

faulty retrospective memory recall

I just realized how important it is to record your CURRENT FEELINGS
while you have them, on a blog or journal, because , when you let that
moment go and try to RECALL WHAT YOU ACTUALLY FELT BACK THEN,,memory
recall is SO INACCURATE and faulty, you end up making mistakes in
piecing it together
I am just readin this lady's blog where she blogged there and then as
each incident happened ...and suddenly I was, " good she recorded it
like this rather than do a RETROSPECTIVE, THIS IS HOW IT POSSIBLY
HAPPENED BACK THEN"
TAGS:memory_recall
I didn't blog for a year because I DIDN'T WANT THIS MAN to know
anything about me or my life..I WANTED TO LEAVE HIM BEHIND....sadly,
all those memories of these three years have vanished AND i have all
faulty recalls now

sexual fix?

was I his sexual fix that whole time?

same personality of the men I date

These are the men I date..men who are somehow of the opinion that
everything else is priority and they OWE THEIR FIRST OFFICIAL DUTY to
someone or something else and somehow I AM SOMEONE that they HELP OUT
by their company
infact, the whole time I am the one IMMENSELY HELPING THEM OUT by
giving them company and then FINALLY, i walk out and then without me,
FINALLY, WITHOUT the person who they thought they were helping or
someone who was easy and accepting enough and self secure enough to
let them treat her as the PERSON THEY HELPED OR KEPT COMPANY.that
person is gone AND then the men feel lost and confused and suddenly
realize WHAT I WAS DOING FOR THEM.but by then this what I THINK of
these men" thankless clueless bastard, he deserves life without me in
it...NOW SO MUCH fun to watch the COMEUPPANCE"
bUT, given that I stay for so long that I stay with such men, says a
lot that I AM LIKE BEING WITH MEN WHO ARE EMOTIONALLY
UNAVAILABLE...HMMM
tAGS:dating,emotinally_unavailable

quote time parenting gene judgement?

This is A penelope trunk quote ( I think I like her:) )
here goes
QUOTE
This is how I'm certain that you cannot judge peoples' parenting by
how their kids turn out. You can judge peoples' genes by how their
kids turned out. It's nature. My brothers and I are all very smart.
And so are my parents. Like I had to tell you that
UNQUOTE

I think and agree..so true!
tags:bloggers,quotes,parenting

Always read the comment section

I always read the comments section to a well written blog entry by
someone...people are at their honest best on a comments box especially
if anonymous comments are allowed even :)))..honest and worstly honest
best... :))
tags:comments,blogs

who is the one that needs convincing

The people you are forwarding my letters to , to HUMILIATE me in
private while I am quite unaware are NOT THE ONES that need the
convincing ..
I AM THE ONE that needs you to convince me that YOU ARE NOT A MONSTER
tAGS:mr_green,monster,breach_of_trust,dissing

The sophisticated blog lady

The last time I read her blog was three years ago and i gathered that
she had just gone on recent dates with a farmer..three years later, i
go read her blog and boom , she has already married him or some
such?The cynic that i was and usually am, way back then when i read
those blogs about those dates, I was like, hmmm, is this gonna work
for her?
tags:ms_p,bloggers,blogs

Mr.U's brother introduced me to this complicated blogger

Mr.U has a big brother..I call him S4 BIG BROTHER,,sensitive
smart,sarcastic and something else..
Though I am not going to be in MR.u 's life anymore, I AM GLAD, that
MR.u has his big brother for life..the one friend he will have
forever,that won't leave him..that assures me , mr.U WILL never be
very very alone..
Incidentally, MR.U has big bro's name tattooed on his ankle-a self
tattoo at that..
Anyways, way back, oh shit... the brother that introduced me to this
complicated blogger is the younger one..
So yeah, he had this blogger on his twitter friend's list along with a
bunch of other tweeps with the same exact name..As in, he really
DIDN'T intend to introduce that blogger to me at all..but just added a
bunch of women with the same name on his twitter as a joke and much as
i always do, poking around the friend's lists of my friends and
family, I ACCIDENTALLY came across this very complicated,
sophisticated and very strong and smart and unapolegetic WOMAN
BLOGGER...
that was three years ago, I think,, for the first time in three years,
i went back to that lady's blog...and she is still strong and kicking
and belting out strong smart blogs..
Thanks to bro for introducing, even if just by accident :))
Tags:blogs,Mr_U, big bro,small_bro,ms_P

BEFORE YOU GO BALD

see,I would like to have sex with you atleast once before you go bald,
coz I plan to run my fingers through your hair during sex.that's why
\Tags:sex,mr_green

One thing I am VERY PROUD of in my life

I was just reading this fellow surgeon's blog and suddenly it occured
to me, much like it occurs and causes me to tear up at the oddest of
times and places THAT THE ONE THING I AM VERY PROUD OF IN MY LIFE IS
THAT I AM A DOCTOR-very very very very proud of that fact..very
proud(can I reiterate any further?)
I am pretty sure I would have been very upset had I not MANAGED TO get
into med school..NO really,, I would have been a very depressed woman
all my life had I not gotten into med school.
:)))Now I am a happy doctor woman :)))))))..very happy.
Tags:pride,doctor

Say sorry and remove my resentment

Tags:resentment,apology,sorry