here are my questions for you

Take your time to answer ONE QUESTION AT A TIME,though,I will just
send them all at once..(just to keep in tune with my own flow of
thoughts)

question 1
In addition to using the cookies on your website to spy on all of my
internet activity,did you also have some kind of attached software to
all your spain photos that you sent me?
infact,do you use any kind of spyware or malware to monitor my activities?

question 2
do you remember you telling me when i first asked you if your GF
DOESN'T MIND you talking to me this way on the internet in 2009..and
you said, "OH SHE DOESN'T MIND and she is aware of my internet
activities and she doesn't mind coz i am 1000 miles away"
Obviously,THAT STATEMENT WAS FALSE,wasn't it?coz,,i saw HOW MUCH YOU
STRUGGLED to make sure that your WIFE never finds out ...during may
2010..You were literally sweating it...TRYING YOUR BEST to never let
any of this news reach your wife's ears..no?
sO,essentially,if she knew,WHAT you talked to me and what you told me
in emails back then.SHE WOULD INFACT MIND..yeah?
So,WHY then did you do it anyways?all those love letters to
me?why?sexually frustrated,too horny,bored,what?trying to see if you
were heterosexual?testing your sexuality?what?

question 3
Does your wife know of all the love letters you wrote to me back
then?does she even have the FAINTEST idea that just days before your
wedding.YOU WROTE ME A LOVE LETTER,almost declaring your love for me?

question 4
Did you really get married on feb27?if so,how come just two days
before that YOU WROTE ME AN UNINVITED EMAIL..declaring your love and
attachment for me..(almost).I mean.I HAD THAT SERIOUS QUESTIONNAIRE in
jan 2010 with you,just so that I KNOW THE TRUTH about your situation
and then TRY MY BEST TO FORGET YOU..Do you know, that ,after our jan
interaction in 2010,i spent the rest of january and the rest of
february, JUST CURLED UP IN FETAL POSITION ON MY COUCH each
day.severely depressed ..DO you know that you are the cause of that
depression that i went through back then?infact.YOU ARE THE CAUSE of
the depression from 2009-2013.

(JUST AS I TYPED OUT QUESTION 4 i teared up..that is what you have
done to me..TEARED ME UP THE WHOLE TIME AND EVEN TILL TODAY-you misery
giver)

question 5
ARe you homesexual?are you bisexual?(As a doctor well versed in
psychology and psychiatry, I CAN WRITE IT DOWN and give it to you that
YOU ARE NOT HETEROSEXUAL)
you find it more easy to emotionally connect unconditionally only with
men..you are okay being deep best friends with WOMEN,,but men are your
chief emotional anchors.
NO HARM OR CRIME in being homesexual..but then.,hiding it and not
confessing that to me and letting me FALL IN LOVE with you , while you
were NEVER IN ANY EMOTIONAL position to RESPOND TO ME,due to your
sexuality.
NOW,that,IS , A PREMEDITATED WRONG you did to me.
Do you understand how tough it is to be a heterosexual woman in love
with a homesexual man ,WHO IS CONSTANTLY running after the love of
other men,,even to the extent of wanting to move back countries
because their man love moved back?

question 6
Why do you love N so much?and why were you constantly interrrupting my
twitter conversations with N way back then on twitter in 2009?was it
coz YOU WANTED TO WARD AWAY any chance he has of meeting new women on
and off the net?
IS THAT ALSO WHY you doggedly sit there and follow him everywhere on
every social network he decides to join?To keep an eye on him and
disrupt any chance of him meeting new women or men ?
you are like this sad puppy dog,waiting for SCRAPS OF ATTENTION FROM
HIM and In the process..I AM THIS SAD PUPPY DOG, waiting for scraps of
your second hand love...COZ YOU CAN'T LOVE BACK A WOMAN LIKE YOU LOVE
HIM...
I hate you for this..totally!

question 7
given your sexuality and YOUR REAL ACTUAL SEXUAL PREFERENCE ,all those
sexual things you wrote in your letters to me,OBVIOUSLY,they were
forced and FAKE,,weren't they?
given that i kept asking you and given that you didn't want to confess
your sexuality secrets with me and given that you didn't want to tell
me your life secret that you were actually gay.YOU DECIDED TO MAKE A
FOOL OUT OF ME.by typing out some random sexual stuff like a
heterosexual man would do or what you ASSUMED a virile heterosexual
man would LOVE TO DO TO A WOMAN?
All those love letters were FAke made up EMOTIONS,,right?

question 8.
Do you remember that time back then, when you told me in sep or oct or
nov 2009, THAT YOU NEVER WANTED TO GET MARRIED AGAIN...and you
actually wanted to move back to aus or europe?
IS THAT because you were gay and homosexuality is LEGAL in europe? and
you wanted to move back to aus,coz , N,had moved back there and you
were so in love with him AND SAD without him in jap,that you were
desperate enough to even move back to australia?
OR,is it that you , planned to move back to australia, taking your
fiance with you as well, wherever you went?

question 9
When exactly did you marry your current wife?Were you married the
whole time you interacted with me?
how long was she living in with you before you got married?
So,essentially,you were living in with her the whole time you were
writing amazing sexual love letters to me?
and HOW EMOTIONALLY DISCONNECTED is that wife of yours, TO NOT EVEN,
notice any change in you pre and post 2009 personality.
I HAVE BROUGHT ABOUT A SEA CHANGE IN YOUR PERSONALITY and that idiot
doesn't have the emotional intelligence to even notice or question
it?or is it that SHE DOESN'T WANT TO NOTICE IT,,given her desperation
to stay with a "green eyed apartment owning gaijin man"(your own words
not mine)
and what kind of low self esteem do YOU have to , WANT TO STAY WITH
desperate women,WHO THEN MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE A KING COZ YOU HAVE GREEN
EYES and freckled cancer prone white skin?(so,you prefer to marry a
desperate woman who is shallow enough to greedily marry a man just coz
he has white skin and green eyes..all because she is secretly ashamed
of her own ugliness and her own race...)SURE,,
I have seen many a loser gaijin, go settle in japan because the local
population is SO ASHAMED OF THEIR PRESUMED UGLINESS,they just
celebrate and treat gaijin like kings, any odd idiot from a foreign
country who comes to japan , all coz they have white skin...
geez..

QUESTION 10
What exactly was I to you?
do you realize HOW MUCH YOU INTERNALIZE ME?
you imbibe my ideas and words and either consciously or unconsciously
PUT INTO ACTION..
I hate it when you took a trip to local disney land after your
marriage...i HATE THAT ,,coz IT WAS MY HONEYMOON IDEA which I wrote on
a journal...A JOURNAL, about which you were not supposed to know of
,unless ofcourse you had spyware installed on my system...because of
which you found that journal..I HAVE LOGS of your visits to that
journal..(how did you find that secret journal-and you kept reading
like a shameless fuck?)
and in the same journal, i had written about machu pichu and aurora
borealis(years ago)
and now you want to take planned trips to machu pichu and aurora beorealis?WTF?
Don't even have a mind or choices of your own?Do you always just feel
the need to buy things others have or do things others do?NO FUCKING
MIND OF YOUR OWN?huh?

question 11
Also,yes,why do you keep visiting my blog...?I mean.we stopped talking
altogether in 2011..so why the fuck, were you always raking up my old
wounds by visiting my blogs and keeping track of me with your spyware
still?
Do you have some kind of automated aggregator set up to AUTOMATICALLY
read my blogs and tweets?
BTW,what is this EVERNOTE business..WHY THE FUCK have you set up an
automated evernote aggregation of MY TWEETS..These are my tweets,my
creative property,,WHY THE FUCK are YOU COLLECTING MY TWEETS?
especially, AFTER, you left no stone unturned to throw me under the
bus and pretend to everyone that I WAS the stalker...
And what is this ogaoga japanese website that neatly aggregates my
tweets datewise..what the fuck...am i an unwilling entertainer?is my
writing entertainment to you?
WHAT THE FUCK...How can I be YOUR stalker..when three days before your
marriage..YOU SAT AND WROTE LOVE LETTERS TO ME?I am not a robot,WHO
must RESPOND WHEN YOU WRITE LOVE LETTERS to her and once you decide
to drop me..I JUST GET SWITCHED OFF TOO..I have emotions ...yeah?

question 12
If you are so interested in my thoughts to keep visiting my blogs..why
not have the decency to reply to my emails when i do take the time to
email you?

question 13
WHAT ARE YOU?btw,,just coz I was nameless and faceless,YOU THOUGHT it
was okay to brand me stalker and tell lies about me to everybody?
remember,this is the same nameless and faceless person,WHOM you wrote
loveletters to in drunken brazen moments...OR NON -drunken bored
office hours.
dId you automatically assume that EVERY INTERNET WOMAN IS A PORN
WHORE,,who is nameless and faceless and a MASTURBATORY TOOL that can
be used whenever you please and discarded whenever you please??
IT IS YOUR PORN ADDICTION THAT HAS CONDITIONED YOU TO THINK that every
internet woman doesn't deserve ANY REAL LIFE CONSIDERATION OR
RESPECT..All women on the net are just SEX BOTS, AREN'T THEY NOW?

Can you believe that 5 years down the lane,I AM STILL FILLED WITH SUCH
RESIDUAL DAMAge FROM our interaction in 2009, that,BITTER LINES flow
out into the 'compose box', WITH MUCH EASE..
I hate it that I HAD SUCH A POSITIVE EFFECT ON YOUR LIFE and in turn
what you managed to give me WAS A WASTE OF MY YOUTHFUL YEARS, a
feeling of being damaged and disrepsect and a low self esteem
associated with the fact that i let a drunken old man do this to me in
2009..HOW COULD i ALLOW THIS...(I hate you now)

You are like a parasite..YOU TAKE TAKE TAKE,take all the inspiration i
can give and YOU CHOOSE TO GIVE ME NOTHING BACK...self absorbed leech
person..who has no respect for my privacy or my needs or my
emotions...EVER thought of giving some love back to me?
either ways,IT IS STUPID of me to want love from a homesexual man, in
love with a heterosexual man who is now a porn pimp..N is damaged in
his own way and his depression medication HAS MADE HIM a robot, WIth
no feeLINGS..his medications HAVE NUMBED HIM DOWN and you stand there
like a beggar EACH DAY at his facebook and website..EXPECTING scraps
of attention from him
and you are transfering that 'lack of love response' in your life to
me..BY TREATING ME THE WAY YOU INADVERTANTLY GET TREATED BY HIM...
you idiot!

question 13
Also,WHY exactly did you get get engaged to her in the first place?HOW
MANIPULATIVE AND SMART must a woman be to just take one of your rings,
wear it and call it an engagement ring and YOU JUST STAND THERE LIKE A
FUCKING PUPPET agreeing to her plans...
OR IS IT that you benefited in some way too?
IS THERE SOME ENGAGEMENT OR MARRIAGE REQUIREMENT for gaijin to OWN
PROPERTY in japan?
Did your engagement or marriage to her make it easy for you to buy
your apartment or buy a bar?I am thinking that is the case..or is it
that having a japanese wife or a wife for that matter,IMPROVES
CREDIBILITY at work or at parties or at the bar?
IF THAT IS THE CASE..i pity you
I USUALLY PITY PEOPLE WHOSE LOVE OR SEX IS FOR SALE..in this
case..YOUR GAIJIN LOVE was for sale...IN EXCHAnge FOR a permanent
residency in japan and an apartment and a bar...
sad you
I usually scoff at australian men and russian women who are eager to
marry americans just for a chance to get a green card..
btw,,is that the reason why you were almost ready to drop her and be
with me initially in 2009?becuase you thought i was american and that
i was going to be your ticket to enter america?GIVEN HOW SELF
ABSORBED,SOUL-LESS and calculative you are,I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED IF
THAT WERE THE CASE...
and GIVEN THAT you used some stupid spyware to spy on WHO i ACTUALLY
WAS and once you suspected that i was not the blonded haired big
boobed stupid american girl who was going to be your ticket to a green
card,YOU SUDDENLY DROPPED ME?
and THEN YOU STARTED CALLING ME A FRAUD?
no really?
I WOULD NEVER MARRY A GUY, who is NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME...and i would
never marry a guy who sends me a photo of him wearing a wedding ring..
WHEN I saw that spain photo, WITH YOUR wedding ring on your finger. I
KNeW HOW YOU would NEVER KNOW WHAT A "REAL" RELATIONSHIP IS ALL
ABOUT..i knew then at that point,THAT MUST UP MY GUARD..and I KNew
that one day you would throw me under the bus too if need
required..AND GUESS WHAT,,you did!
To you,everything is about UPGRADING TO A BETTER YOUNGER WOMAN if you
get a a chance..

BTW,your orangautan faced wife..PROBABLY giggles each night when you
have sex with her...ASSUMING and flattering herself as to how much
you love her..idiot..OR MAYBE ,she is NOT an idiot..MAYBE she is just
self absorbed,damaged and calculative like you are,,DESPERATE to
parade her green eyed apartment owning gaijin husband in front of all
her relatives and friends, who are equally ashamed at their own race
and equally ashamed at how ugly they are by self perception..and eager
like jokers to talk to white skinned people.
AND YOU LIKE BEING CELEBRATED LIKE A KING IN A COUNTRY FULL OF HALF
BAKED UGLY idiots, who superstitiously quote traditions AND THEIR
STUPID katakana has all but english words in it(so much for linguistic
tradition)..FUCKING IDIOTS, the whole lot of you..REALLY!
(I hate it that I EVER MET YOU, i hate it that I TRIED TO HELP YOU OUT
OF YOUR ALCOHOLISM..I hate MY OWN DESPERATION to actually believe
stupid love letters an alcoholic wrote to me once)

And NOW YOU ARE all cleaned up,and DOING things, the things that WE
BOTH ONCE PLANNED to do together..AND YOU DOING THEM with her..we once
talked and discussed kowloon and now YOU WENT THERe,WITH HER..wtf!
aS IF WOMEN ARE REPLACEABLE..(i HATE you, I Hate you)
aND I HATE MYSELF, that inspite of all this...I STILL KINDA, miss you
on some days..i hate you for that...coz it gives me low self esteem to
realize that I MISS A MAN that damaged me so much
I hate it that i gave my PRECIOUS MULTITALENTED LOVE to a stupid man
FOR WHOM a giggly calculative organgutan face was enough..someone who
parades him to temples and parties and makes him do things for her and
give her gifts and yet HAS NOTHING REALLY TO OFFER, except her stupid
organgutan faced dependant company AND TO THINK that , tHAT IS ENOUGH
FOR YOU and yet..I GAVE YOU WHAT WAS an overkill for you....
wHEN STUPID orangutan faces WILL DO,,why does nefertiti interfere AND
OFFER HER WARES, no?

LOOK at the number of pages THAT I TYPED OUT WITHOUT A FUCKING
EFFORT..the damage JUST DOESN'T FADE AWAY( i HATE YOU.that I allowed
you to do this to me....)

And after begging quite a few times for my pictures..when i finally
emailed them to you..YOU DON'T EVEN REPLY?wtf? AND WHEN YOU do, YOU
TELL ME THAT all you could think was "9 and a half weeks"
The fucked up stupid movie..THESE ARE THE KIND OF MOVIES YOU USE to
learn about female sexuality?THE FUCKED UP MOVIE and YOUR FUCKED UP
SEXUALITY.thanq very much
DUDE,you fucking asked for pics AND when i send them..I BECOME THE
crazed 9 and a half weeks woman?MAybe, if I just took one of your
rings and wore it and called it an engagement,THAT WOULD BE
NORMAL?yeah?FUCK YOU..you moron

seriously...WHAT THE FUCK..you don't even have the guts to really
answer any question I ask you,coz YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS MESSED UP and
just coz i decided to come and help, YOU HAVE MESSED ME UP
TOO..thanks?

THE ONE PERSON who you could trust, respect and love..YOU THREW UNDER
THE BUS and you are de-sensitized in your head TO THE POINT that you
move on with life, LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED..
well, my dear friend,SOMETHING DID HAPPEN BACK THEN and you are
fucking answerable to me..EVEN MORE THAN to that giggly orangutan
face..WHO THINKS husbands are dogs on leashes...SERIOUSLY..wtf..THANKS
FOR ALL THE EMOTIONAL DAMAGE.

currently browsing last years yfrog photos of mr.r..i AM SUCH AN ARCHIVE MAGNET..love browsing in bulk

My ideas about reformative justice match that of mr.r..SEE,that is why I am intellectually in sync with this man.

Quoting mr.R and his beliefs

quote
9 march
My beliefs never stem from a knee jerk reaction. They stem from
reading, seeking counsel from those wiser than me, feeling,
analysing(contd) looking at history, at context and into my mind and
heart. Thanks again.
UNQUOTE

hmmm,nice...

MR.R says hate begets hate but love shames hate..SEE,THIS IS WHY, I LIKE THIS MAN..balm on the soul.AWWW

Mr.R IS cute in his straightforward purity of heart.NO HIDDEN EMOTIONAL TROUBLES like mr.t.in this he scores over mr.t

Mr.R has this cuteness factor to his jokes..very verbally british STYLE play of words,but YET,his style matches mine.ME LIKEY!

pianoman and she is always a woman to me are two of mr.r's fav billyjoel songs.MUST CHECK them out(jots in diary)

Cute to watch MR.R retweet every little nasty tweet anyone writes about him.IT TAKES COMICAL EFFECT.upon cuteness

ok. mr. R visited this ancient restaurant in my city on 18th,the one i used to go to during med school.DAMN,could've met him!

okay I redact last statement about mr.r ageing.took a look at his yfrog album.NOPE.Still very very young looking.

Age is catching with mr.r (mr.r is actually younger than mr.t)CLEARLY,mr.t wins..above mr.green,and mr.r

When Mr.R talks about ray manzarek,how he helped teens,our generation gap/age difference becomes apparent!

Mr.R likes caramel,sesame,coriander and chocolate,vanilla and mango?and he has great teeth after this food?

Mr.R was in my city on the 19th.shit missed that.read his tweets only now.For a marathon.(ofcourse!)

Mr.T is about kind eyes,kind heart,childish body language,precise instructions,generous teaching.AWW

Mr.T has three kids,all boys and some strange,cute father-son dynamics there.INTERESTING